{"id":4186,"date":"2018-07-24T23:35:41","date_gmt":"2018-07-24T20:35:41","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/?p=4186"},"modified":"2018-07-25T01:39:10","modified_gmt":"2018-07-24T22:39:10","slug":"lara-ozharar","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/2018\/07\/24\/lara-ozharar\/","title":{"rendered":"Lara \u00d6zharar"},"content":{"rendered":"

\u00a0Fizik kanunlar\u0131yla \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken \u0130sa\u2019yla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fan Lara Han\u0131m:<\/span><\/p>\n

Yani \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulaca\u011f\u0131m, sonra fizik okuyup evrenin s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 anlayaca\u011f\u0131m ve nihayetinde Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 bulaca\u011f\u0131m, plan\u0131m bu idi!<\/p>\n

Merhaba, Ben Lara<\/strong><\/p>\n

Efesliler 2: 8-9 \u0130man yoluyla, l\u00fctufla kurtuldunuz. Bu sizin ba\u015far\u0131n\u0131z de\u011fil, Tanr\u0131’n\u0131n arma\u011fan\u0131d\u0131r. Kimsenin \u00f6v\u00fcnmemesi i\u00e7in iyi i\u015flerin \u00f6d\u00fcl\u00fc de\u011fildir.<\/strong><\/p>\n

Bu ayet \u00e7o\u011fu zaman benim avuntu kayna\u011f\u0131m olmu\u015ftur \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc e\u011fer Tanr\u0131 beni yapt\u0131klar\u0131mla de\u011ferlendirseydi hap\u0131 yutmu\u015ftum.<\/p>\n

K\u00f6kenim ve iman aray\u0131\u015f\u0131m<\/strong><\/p>\n

Gelenek\u00e7i Hristiyan dedi\u011fimiz bir aileden geliyorum. 16 ya\u015f\u0131mdan itibaren Tanr\u0131\u2019dan uzakla\u015fmaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. 28 ya\u015f\u0131nda ateistli\u011fi savunurken bir taraftan da son bir \u00fcmit olarak, ya Tanr\u0131 varsa diye, Kutsal Kitab\u0131 ve Kuran\u2019\u0131 okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m. Do\u011frusu ba\u015fka nereden ba\u015flang\u0131\u00e7 yapaca\u011f\u0131m\u0131 bilemiyordum. Tutarl\u0131 bir Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bana yol g\u00f6sterece\u011fine inan\u0131yordum. Y\u00fcre\u011fim se\u00e7imini Kutsal Kitap\u2019tan yana yapt\u0131. Bu se\u00e7ime ba\u011fl\u0131 kald\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc ta ba\u015f\u0131ndan beri Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n kendisini arayan birini \u015fa\u015f\u0131rtmayaca\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yordum. E\u011fer niyeti belirsiz bir Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131 s\u00f6z konusu olsayd\u0131 zaten hepimiz ba\u015ftan yanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131k, bu durumda aray\u0131\u015fa bile gerek yok diye d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcn\u00fcyordum. \u0130ki-\u00fc\u00e7 hafta i\u00e7inde Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n l\u00fctfuyla \u0130sa Mesih\u2019in Tanr\u0131 oldu\u011funa ve g\u00fcnahlar\u0131m i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcp aklanmam i\u00e7in de \u00f6l\u00fcmden dirildi\u011fine iman ettim, ama mesih\u2019in m\u00fcjdesinin tam olarak a\u00e7\u0131lmas\u0131 bir y\u0131ll\u0131k bir zaman zarf\u0131nda ger\u00e7ekle\u015fti.<\/p>\n

Ev halk\u0131n\u0131n tepkisi<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130talya\u2019da iman etmi\u015ftim. T\u00fcrkiye\u2019ye d\u00f6nd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmde e\u015fim Alper bendeki de\u011fi\u015fimden hem korkmu\u015f hem ho\u015flanm\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Benim sadece radikal bir \u201cdinciye\u201d d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015ft\u00fc\u011f\u00fcm\u00fc d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f, bunu da hi\u00e7bir zaman bir fikirde, inan\u00e7ta sabit kalamayan benim ge\u00e7ici bir hevesim olarak yorumlam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Yani radikal de\u011fi\u015fimime o kadar \u015fa\u015f\u0131rmam\u0131\u015ft\u0131. Ama zamanla bunun ciddi ve kal\u0131c\u0131 oldu\u011funu g\u00f6r\u00fcnce kendisi de \u201cneymi\u015f\u201d diye anlamak i\u00e7in sorular sormaya ba\u015flad\u0131. Bir y\u0131l sonra o da ayn\u0131 l\u00fctufla Hristiyan oldu.<\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n muhte\u015fem plan\u0131<\/strong><\/p>\n

Ben \u00fcniversitede fizik okudum. Fizik \u00f6\u011frenmeye lise 2\u2019de karar verdim. O zaman 17 ya\u015f\u0131ndayd\u0131m ve fizik hocas\u0131na sordu\u011fum bir soruya ald\u0131\u011f\u0131m yan\u0131ttan sonra fizi\u011fe a\u015f\u0131k oldum ve fizi\u011fin evreninin t\u00fcm s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 a\u00e7\u0131klayabilece\u011fine inand\u0131m. Hi\u00e7 \u00e7al\u0131\u015fkan bir \u00f6\u011frenci olmama ra\u011fmen o andan itibaren hep teorik fizikle ilgili bilgi edinmeye \u00e7al\u0131\u015ft\u0131m. Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n varl\u0131\u011f\u0131ndan \u015f\u00fcphe duymaya ba\u015flad\u0131\u011f\u0131m y\u0131llard\u0131. Evrenin s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 bilebilirsem Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n var olup olmayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 da otomatik olarak anlayaca\u011f\u0131ma y\u00fcrekten inan\u0131yordum ve bu art\u0131k benim hayat\u0131m\u0131n amac\u0131yd\u0131. Bu fikir beni o kadar heyecanland\u0131rd\u0131 ki fizik bilgimi geli\u015ftirmek i\u00e7in kendi \u00e7ap\u0131mda k\u00fct\u00fcphanelerde ara\u015ft\u0131rma yapt\u0131m, hocama sorular sordum, vs. Ama \u00e7ok k\u0131sa zamanda h\u00fcsrana u\u011frad\u0131m \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc teorik fizi\u011fin benim i\u00e7in \u00e7ok zor oldu\u011funu g\u00f6rd\u00fcm; okuduklar\u0131m\u0131n \u00e7o\u011funu anlayam\u0131yordum bile! O zaman kendi kendime dedim ki: \u201cBenim Teorik fizi\u011fi \u00f6\u011frenmeye \u00f6mr\u00fcm yetmez. O zaman esas arzum olan fizik\u00e7i olma plan\u0131m\u0131 ask\u0131ya al\u0131p her \u015feyden \u00f6nce genetik okumal\u0131y\u0131m, \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc fizi\u011fin t\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u00f6\u011frenebilmek i\u00e7in \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulmam \u015fart!\u201d<\/p>\n

Yani \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulaca\u011f\u0131m, sonra fizik okuyup evrenin s\u0131rlar\u0131n\u0131 anlayaca\u011f\u0131m ve nihayetinde Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 bulaca\u011f\u0131m, plan\u0131m bu idi! \u0130nsanlar\u0131n beni anlayamayaca\u011f\u0131n\u0131 d\u00fc\u015f\u00fcnd\u00fc\u011f\u00fcmden uzun y\u0131llar bunu herkesten saklad\u0131m. \u015eu anda imk\u00e2ns\u0131z bir \u201cplan\u201d oldu\u011funu anlayabiliyorum ama o zamanlar bu konuda \u00e7ok ciddiydim.<\/p>\n

Ger\u00e7ekten de o zaman \u00fcniversite s\u0131navlar\u0131nda 18 dal se\u00e7me \u015fans\u0131n\u0131z vard\u0131. Ben sadece tek bir se\u00e7enek yapm\u0131\u015ft\u0131m o da biyolojiydi (oradan geneti\u011fe ge\u00e7ece\u011fim diye planl\u0131yordum). Annem se\u00e7imime bir anlam veremiyordu. Fizi\u011fi sevdi\u011fimi biliyordu ama bu biyoloji birden bire nereden \u00e7\u0131km\u0131\u015ft\u0131? Ani d\u00f6n\u00fc\u015f\u00fcmden hakl\u0131 olarak endi\u015felenmi\u015fti. Bir g\u00fcn annem bir arkada\u015f\u0131na bu hi\u00e7 ger\u00e7ek\u00e7i olmayan plan\u0131mdan gizlice ve \u00e7aresizce dert yanm\u0131\u015f ve o arkada\u015f\u0131 da bana demi\u015fti ki: \u201ck\u0131z\u0131m sen fizik istemiyor muydun? Biyoloji nerden \u00e7\u0131kt\u0131? Hem ya kazanamazsan? \u0130stersen ne olur ne olmaz fizi\u011fi de yaz, ne de olsa sen onu seviyorsun.\u201d Kad\u0131nca\u011f\u0131z hakl\u0131 gibi geldi, bir aksilik olmas\u0131n diye ben de 2. se\u00e7enek olarak as\u0131l iste\u011fim olan \u0130T\u00dc fizi\u011fi yazd\u0131m. Bu se\u00e7imimi kazan\u0131nca dedim ki \u201chay Allah \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulma i\u015fi \u015fimdilik rafa kalkt\u0131! Neyse zaten esas istedi\u011fim buydu \u00fcmidimi kesmiyorum, \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc sonra bir \u015fekilde bulurum, yola devam!\u201d B\u00f6ylece fizik okumaya ba\u015flad\u0131m…ve Tanr\u0131\u2019yla \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc ayn\u0131 anda buldum!<\/p>\n

Bunu anlamam doktorada tez yazma a\u015famas\u0131nda oldu. E\u015fim Alper\u2019le konu\u015ftu\u011fum s\u0131rada birden kafamda bir \u015fim\u015fek \u00e7akt\u0131: Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bu \u201c\u00e7\u0131lg\u0131n\u201d plan\u0131m\u0131 ciddiye ald\u0131\u011f\u0131n\u0131, fizik e\u011fitimi almak i\u00e7in gitti\u011fim \u0130talya\u2019da, bir zamanlar aramakta oldu\u011fumu unuttu\u011fum Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 buldu\u011fumu fark ettim. Tanr\u0131\u2019y\u0131 bulunca otomatik olarak \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011fe de kavu\u015fmu\u015f olmu\u015ftum \u00e7\u00fcnk\u00fc \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n dedi\u011fi gibi “Dirili\u015f ve Ya\u015fam benim. Bana iman eden \u00f6lse de ya\u015fayacakt\u0131r. Ya\u015fayan ve bana iman eden asla \u00f6lmeyecek (Yuhanna 11)\u201d<\/strong><\/p>\n

Tanr\u0131 istemeden kimsenin O\u2019na yakla\u015famayaca\u011f\u0131 bir Kutsal Kitap ger\u00e7e\u011fidir. “Beni g\u00f6nderen Baba bir kimseyi bana \u00e7ekmedik\u00e7e, o kimse bana gelemez. Bana geleni de son g\u00fcnde diriltece\u011fim. (Yuhanna 6: 44)\u201d <\/strong>Neyse ki Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n g\u00fcc\u00fc, al\u00e7ak g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcl\u00fc\u011f\u00fcyle ters orant\u0131l\u0131d\u0131r. Tanr\u0131 o kadar al\u00e7ak g\u00f6n\u00fcll\u00fcd\u00fcr ki kendisini arayanlar\u0131n kar\u015f\u0131s\u0131na \u00e7\u0131kar. Nitekim Kutsal Kitap\u2019a g\u00f6re \u00f6z g\u00f6r\u00fcn\u00fcm\u00fcn\u00fc \u0130sa Mesih\u2019te sergilemi\u015ftir. \u201cMesih, Tanr\u0131 \u00f6z\u00fcne sahip oldu\u011fu halde, Tanr\u0131’ya e\u015fitli\u011fi s\u0131ms\u0131k\u0131 sar\u0131lacak bir hak saymad\u0131. \u0130sa kul \u00f6z\u00fcn\u00fc al\u0131p insan benzeyi\u015finde do\u011farak ululu\u011funu bir yana b\u0131rakt\u0131. \u0130nsan bi\u00e7imine b\u00fcr\u00fcnm\u00fc\u015f olarak \u00f6l\u00fcme, \u00e7arm\u0131h \u00fczerinde \u00f6l\u00fcme bile boyun e\u011fip kendini al\u00e7altt\u0131. (Filipililer 2: 6-7)\u201d <\/strong>Her yol O\u2019na gitmez, o b\u00fct\u00fcn yollar\u0131 kapatacak g\u00fc\u00e7tedir. \u0130sa, “Yol, ger\u00e7ek ve ya\u015fam Ben’im” dedi. “Benim arac\u0131l\u0131\u011f\u0131m olmadan Baba’ya kimse gelemez.<\/strong> (Yuhanna 14: 6)<\/strong><\/p>\n

\u0130\u015fte ben de Rab \u0130sa\u2019n\u0131n y\u00fcce l\u00fctfuna eri\u015ferek Tanr\u0131\u2019ya ula\u015fm\u0131\u015f bir ki\u015fiyim. Kutsal Kitap uyar\u0131nca Tanr\u0131\u2019n\u0131n bizi Kendisini y\u00fcceltmek i\u00e7in yaratt\u0131\u011f\u0131na inan\u0131yorum ve ya\u015fad\u0131\u011f\u0131m s\u00fcrece Rab\u2019bi y\u00fcceltmek istiyorum.<\/p>\n

Lara Talar Kelleyane \u00d6zharar<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

\u00a0Fizik kanunlar\u0131yla \u00f6l\u00fcms\u00fczl\u00fc\u011f\u00fc bulmaya \u00e7al\u0131\u015f\u0131rken \u0130sa\u2019yla kar\u015f\u0131la\u015fan Lara Han\u0131m:<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":4201,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[55],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-4186","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-neden-incile-inandilar"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4186","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=4186"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/4186\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/4201"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=4186"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=4186"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/dirisukilisesi.org\/index.php\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=4186"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}